Like most young women, I spent my teens hating myself real hardcore. To the point where I was self destructive. I hated my body, and I hated my brain. One day in college it finally hit me: why add another worry to my life? Hating my body (MY body) was just pointless. I have enough to worry about right?
Since then I have grown to love my body more each day. I wear daring, sometimes unflattering outfits and give the side eye to the people who tease about it. I am a self proclaimed chubster, so calling me fat isn’t gonna do much. ;)
But loving my brain…that was hardest. I’m still working on it. When I was 14 I started seeing psychiatrists and therapists. When I was 16 I was diagnosed Bipolar 2, a less severe version of Bipolar. When I moved to New York in 2010, everything was still less severe. As my college years went on, things just got so much worse. My illness got progressed and I was rediagnosed Bipolar 1. I had to take a year of medical leave, postponing my graduation from college. It was devastating.
But look here I am! Still got that label on me. Still takin’ alllllll the pills. 3 weeks from graduation. Learning to love my not so normal brain, and learning to be thankful for the experiences.
I wanted to share a brief version of my story in this first post so that y’all would understand my goals for this. Loving mind and body is important and for me, the key to enjoying life. If I didn’t accept my illness or my fluffy tum tum then well how will I ever have any fun times? Style is a way I have some of that fun. Carefree, no rules, showing off the body that I love…
So this is a style blog with a twist: positivity in every sense of the word, raptastic outfits, and lots of love.
Had a spare frame and a successful 11x14 test print so I made myself a present.
Some beautiful body positive words from Dita Von Teese :)
Change your idea about my body.
[ #bodyposi #bodypositive #honormycurves #effyourbeautystandards #fatpositive #plussize #feminism ]
Ok, so this post isn’t supposed to be sexy or anything, infact its going to be REALLY personal. For everyone whos been following me for while, y’all are probably wondering why I’m posting my boobies and butt all the time now, and those who follow me irl are either disgusted or supporting me. Basically let me break it down. I’ve hated myself ever since I can remember. every part of my body. everything. to the point where I’ve stayed in an entire summer because going outside meant I had to wear short sleeves or shorts. I live by the ocean, but last summer I only went to the beach 3 times… at night. I loved swimming as a kid, but around the time I hit puberty you wouldn’t catch me near a pool. I was bullied severely as a child, and once middle school came around, it only got worse. The insecurity only grew worse and worse over the years as I compared my body to everyone elses. The bullying stopped, But I didn’t stop hurting myself. Ive been struggling on and off with an ED since 8th grade and this past year I have grown so much in learning to love myself and forgive myself. With that being said, me posting nudie pictures are my way of showing off my new love for myself and my new body positive attitude. Im freeing myself, and I recommend all my followers and anyone else who sees this to do it. to ditch the self hate and love yourself. I plan on continuing to post more and to continue working on happiness for myself :)
All shapes and sizes, all natural.
Crushing social constructs one post at a time.
some days I feel good in my body #gay #ftm #queer #bodypositive