Self Acceptance Despite Mental Illness.

Hope this helps at least someone.

I’m having a shitty day, so please don’t be mean.

This is a video that was requested on my personal tumblr, I thought you guys might want to watch it.
Make sure to answer the question at the end of the video!


My journey of body confidence has taken a long time, a very long time. I remember being a 10 year old girl, struggling with sexual abuse in secret and finding any way to destroy my body to deal with it without even realising what I was doing was extremely dangerous.

I had a baby at 17, and was my healthiest during pregnancy, making sure my baby would be healthy. Three and a half years later, he is healthy, handsome and amazing. I thank myself every day for not giving in to the thoughts I had as I grew.

At 19, I destroyed my body, as I dealt badly with my mental health and ended up being involuntarily admitted to hospital because my BMI had dropped drastically in such a small amount of time. 

Now at 21, nearly 22, I am the most confident and self aware than I ever have been in my life. I don’t worry as much at what I eat and don’t restrict myself because a healthy body equals a healthy brain. I still have a little bit more weight to put on, but I am definitely getting there and not destroying myself physically anymore. I know now that it’s normal for my stomach to grow throughout the day as I consume food. I don’t crave a completely flat stomach anymore, it’s okay to have to squeeze into my jeans and I dress the way I want to.

I am not completely 100% happy, but I am the happiest I have ever been and I have finally gotten to a pretty good place with myself. I am proud of myself for getting here, to this place where I’m okay with the body I see every day and that’s a big deal, I never thought I would call myself a recovering anorexic, but I am and it feels fucking awesome.

Unhealthy weight loss won’t:

  • Make your bones shrink
  • Won’t make you confident
  • Won’t allow you to rock all of the ‘thinspo’ fashion
  • Won’t make you better than anyone else
  • Won’t show that you are determined or strong
  • Won’t make you a better person
  • Won’t make people jealous of you
  • Make you muscular
  • Give you rockin’ abs
  • Make you light as a feather
  • Make you look better in all of your clothes
  • Help you get the guy or the girl

Unhealthy weight loss will:

  • Make your body malnourished
  • Make people worry about you
  • Make you emotionless
  • Terrify the people who love you
  • Probably make you eating disordered
  • Show you that your ‘UGW’ is never small enough
  • Probably fucking kill you.


My name is Jes ( and I am in recovery for anorexia. This blog is a way to spread awareness for my project, No More Silence - The Book. 

I am wanting to get together as many different stories I can about people’s personal struggles with their eating disorders and giving people a glimpse into their lives. I want this book to be as open and honest as possible, so that people may get the chance to truly understand how diverse eating disorders really are.

If you are a writer, or you have written something about your eating disorder, please contact me. You can be anonymous or not, it is completely up to you. 

Write about your struggles, when your eating disorder started, what you have/were diagnosed with, how it affected you and everyone else in your life and where you are currently (recovery or relapse). I want the stories to be between 500-1000 words, no more than that since I am wanting to get together as many stories as I possibly can.

If you are interested, please either message me here in my inbox or email me at for more information.

I will be doing fundraising, but first I need enough stories to get people interested in the book.

I really hope I can do this, but I can’t without the stories. They are the most important things. People need to understand better, so this is a way to raise awareness and get your story out there.

Please let people know and get my idea out there, the more people that know and want to contribute, the bigger chance I have of actually achieving the goal. So please feel free to reblog this post or make a post of your own, letting people know what I am wanting to do and let me know.

Also, feel free to follow this Tumblr, I will be giving updates along the way.

Love you all.